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Wednesday, March 15th, 2006 03:21 pmI am in pain, misery, and work is absolutely dead, so you guys get rambling which will be whatever I feel like.
Come with me, for I have seen the tears that fell from the great god's eyes, and I will lead you there and beyond. Glimmering rainbows and shadowed mists, within all lies the truth of the why of the tears.
Crushed beneath the weight of the lightest of accusations, freed by the heaviest touch. Wanting what one will never allow oneself. Asking of others what one pushes away with all one's might. Seeing the reality of hurt and pain, the truth of beauty, the ugliness of shame. Morality is just another word for imposed cultural views.
Is it worth the price for the best, or is the oh so slightly sub-par just as well and many prices cheaper?
Alright, I'm done rambling about random things. On to more real life things.
Managed to abate the pain by holding my shawl/scarf against the side of my face. A lot of customers have asked me if I have tooth ache because of it, to which I can but answer yes. My painkillers are letting me down and not working. Been in pain since before I woke up. I went to bed late, I had mega dreams, I kept waking up lots too. Then I started waking up with toothache, ignoring and going back to sleep until I couldn't sleep for pain at 6am. Took painkillers, woke up at 7:30am with pain still *sigh* I HATE DENTISTS! I start freaking out when I sit on the chair. My poor dentist has to wait for me to calm down enough for him to do stuff, and I still mini-freak out a bit during. *whimper* I don't wanna go back, but my tooth hurts and I still have the last stage of the root canal to do and the four fillings on my left side to do.
Ghost memories have been rising lately too, probably due to tiredness + pain + stress from dentist. It's not a nice place to be in when I start remembering all the stuff that happened. It's different ghosts to the ones that used to be. I've pretty much dealt with the ones that used to be, they don't hurt me anymore. These ghosts though....I avoid them, I bottle them and suppress them and I don't won't to deal with them but know that one day I will have to and I'm scared and I feel inadequate and I don't want to hurt
Bring on the more sleep, less pain, and finishing of dental work, and I'll be much happier again.
Come with me, for I have seen the tears that fell from the great god's eyes, and I will lead you there and beyond. Glimmering rainbows and shadowed mists, within all lies the truth of the why of the tears.
Crushed beneath the weight of the lightest of accusations, freed by the heaviest touch. Wanting what one will never allow oneself. Asking of others what one pushes away with all one's might. Seeing the reality of hurt and pain, the truth of beauty, the ugliness of shame. Morality is just another word for imposed cultural views.
Is it worth the price for the best, or is the oh so slightly sub-par just as well and many prices cheaper?
Alright, I'm done rambling about random things. On to more real life things.
Managed to abate the pain by holding my shawl/scarf against the side of my face. A lot of customers have asked me if I have tooth ache because of it, to which I can but answer yes. My painkillers are letting me down and not working. Been in pain since before I woke up. I went to bed late, I had mega dreams, I kept waking up lots too. Then I started waking up with toothache, ignoring and going back to sleep until I couldn't sleep for pain at 6am. Took painkillers, woke up at 7:30am with pain still *sigh* I HATE DENTISTS! I start freaking out when I sit on the chair. My poor dentist has to wait for me to calm down enough for him to do stuff, and I still mini-freak out a bit during. *whimper* I don't wanna go back, but my tooth hurts and I still have the last stage of the root canal to do and the four fillings on my left side to do.
Ghost memories have been rising lately too, probably due to tiredness + pain + stress from dentist. It's not a nice place to be in when I start remembering all the stuff that happened. It's different ghosts to the ones that used to be. I've pretty much dealt with the ones that used to be, they don't hurt me anymore. These ghosts though....I avoid them, I bottle them and suppress them and I don't won't to deal with them but know that one day I will have to and I'm scared and I feel inadequate and I don't want to hurt
Bring on the more sleep, less pain, and finishing of dental work, and I'll be much happier again.
