Trading secrets
Wednesday, July 16th, 2003 07:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
silveraiBlah.
Another headache, coupling with a tummy not being nice to me. I fed it a bland dinner of chips, so I'm hoping it'll be nice and settle down in time for bed, otherwise I'll have to go to sleep sitting up.
While I shouldn't be on the computer with a headache, I am. It's either that or TV or a book, and while the computer is the worst of the three, it's also the most interesting. Especially right now. You see, a friend visited me today. They have this online diary which they haven't shared the address with many people. It's what I'm reading right now :D hence the computer being the most interesting right now.
Been depressed lately. A little bit over the last couple of weeks, and a lot over the last couple of days. Was bursting into tears every so often at work last night, but luckily it was all but once in the car on my way to and back from delivering, giving me just enough time and space to cry and then compose myself before facing anyone. The once not in my car, I went into the toilet, and composed myself a bit. They sent me on a delivery straight after, so I was able to get out to my car before I started crying again. I think the depression bit is caused by coke (I usually avoid it because of this very reason) and too much chocolate (which I'm not sure but I think does the same as coke to me eventually). So that's _why_ I'm depressed, but it's not the trigger. The depression has been lying mostly dormant until I think of some stuff I've had on my brain lately on top of other things on my brain which is on top of still other things, and then comes out fully ready to go. Not used to it anymore, I _had_ been behaving myself and not having trigger foods until recently, and now I'm wishing I had stuck to it. Although madly whirling brain can be just as bad as depression sometimes, it's definitely not as noticeable.
And now back to reading
Another headache, coupling with a tummy not being nice to me. I fed it a bland dinner of chips, so I'm hoping it'll be nice and settle down in time for bed, otherwise I'll have to go to sleep sitting up.
While I shouldn't be on the computer with a headache, I am. It's either that or TV or a book, and while the computer is the worst of the three, it's also the most interesting. Especially right now. You see, a friend visited me today. They have this online diary which they haven't shared the address with many people. It's what I'm reading right now :D hence the computer being the most interesting right now.
Been depressed lately. A little bit over the last couple of weeks, and a lot over the last couple of days. Was bursting into tears every so often at work last night, but luckily it was all but once in the car on my way to and back from delivering, giving me just enough time and space to cry and then compose myself before facing anyone. The once not in my car, I went into the toilet, and composed myself a bit. They sent me on a delivery straight after, so I was able to get out to my car before I started crying again. I think the depression bit is caused by coke (I usually avoid it because of this very reason) and too much chocolate (which I'm not sure but I think does the same as coke to me eventually). So that's _why_ I'm depressed, but it's not the trigger. The depression has been lying mostly dormant until I think of some stuff I've had on my brain lately on top of other things on my brain which is on top of still other things, and then comes out fully ready to go. Not used to it anymore, I _had_ been behaving myself and not having trigger foods until recently, and now I'm wishing I had stuck to it. Although madly whirling brain can be just as bad as depression sometimes, it's definitely not as noticeable.
And now back to reading
